7 years of sexting and possible meetups

I've (41M) been dating my WS (43F) since 2013; married since 2017. No children; first marriages for both of us. Early on in our relationship , I accidentally discovered some images and sexting between her and a work colleague of hers. We didn't live together at the time, but I gathered her stuff that she kept at my place and took it to her place while she was at work. I sent her an email asking her not to contact me again and that we were through. She cried and begged and I took her back a week later. This was a big mistake as it turns out.

Fast forward to 2020 (during COVID lockdown). She left her PC unlocked and I noticed a very suspicious conversation between her and a man I didn't know referring to fun dress pictures, new outfits, etc and a desire for keeping things discreet. While I didn't have any definitive proof at this point of any wrong-doing, it was extremely suspicious. I confronted her about it and said I suspected she was having another sexting relationship. She semi-confessed and said it was just idle / fun conversation between friends and didn't mean anything - although there were nudes involved (!) - but she did feel like it crossed a line and would not happen anymore. I struggled to accept this but kind of dealt with it at the time because of some family health crises related to COVID and my own parents divorcing during that time. This seems VERY naive in hindsight.

About a month ago, I was going through old smart phones that we have to prepare them for recycling. As I was going through them, one of them in particular just seemed odd to me because the only application open was calculator. After during some research, it turned out to be a "secret photo" app that lets you hide pictures and videos. After doing some more digging, I found many extremely explicit nudes of herself that I'd never seen. There was also a social media account that was left logged in showing her looking for men to meet up with for all kinds of explicit sexual acts, with specific comments about needing to be discreet and only being available before noon (I worked until 3pm at the time). There were also many messages exchanging snapchat information for sharing nudes. These messages and pictures were all from 6 months before to 6 months after when we got married in 2017 (I think the phone was last used in late 2017). She was not working at this time due to what I thought were her mental health struggles, so I was the only one working and supporting us.

When I found those pictures and especially those discussions about meeting up, I was devastated. I immediately scheduled a doctor's appointment to get tested for STDs (all clear thankfully). I also contacted an attorney to discuss my options.

I confronted her two weeks ago about what I'd found. At first, she basically said that we'd already discussed this when I confronted her in 2020. I told her much of this was new to me, and I certainly didn't know about any physical meet-ups. She claimed that those were just a fantasy and she never acted on those (sure...). She also said that she'd been "good" since then and thought we were clear of this after our last conversation in 2020. She even suggested that maybe the key to happiness would be to have an open marriage. What??? I was so shaken and confused by her answers that I told her I'd have to think about all of this but took no action at the time.

We have had sex maybe 5 times in the past 5 years. She now claims this was due to guilt from her past mistakes, although she previously claimed it was related to mental health and past abuse until this most recent set of revelations.

As I type all this out, I feel so naive and trusting for letting this go this long. I am trying to get my mental health in order (so I don't have a complete breakdown) and then I plan to file for divorce. I make a lot more money than her so I expect to lose my shirt in the divorce, but honestly I don't care and just want this pain to be over.

Thanks for reading. I'm glad this community exists as this is a sort of pain I've never experienced before.

6 comments posted: Thursday, May 14th, 2026