My story and confusion

I'm not sure what to do for my relationship. I want to keep it going.

The story is that I met my fiance a little under 2 years ago. Things were great but then last year in October he came to me saying he almost cheated on me but didn't because the girl revealed she was underage. I forgave him. And we talked about why and he said that he suffers from depression and talking to women and being sexually active is his " drug" to cope. I said we should try counseling, he agreed but money has been tight so we didn't go.

Fast forward to a few months ago he tells me that another women he hooked up with around the same time we met was claiming she had his baby, did the DNA test, it was false. Though I did catch him like a few weeks later texting her and begging her to stay with him and talking shit on our relationship. Confronted him he said it wasn't what is look d like and that he doesn't like to lose people. At this point I'm hurting and asked if he would be able to be faithful and he did he would try to change but it would take time.i stupidly said we could be in an open relationship just so I'm not feeling like I'm being cheated on... didn't help my feelings at all

He then went to go hang out with a friend and smoke weed with them they had sex and also like a week ago he did the same ( minus smoking weed) with the women who claimed she had his baby. I begged him when he got home to please stop with the outsourcing with other women he said he would try again.

Then this week I have learned the women he smoked with, the condom broke and she is pregnant. This hurts me lot cause in 2023 we got pregnant but I miscarried and we planned to try again but only when we were more financially stable.

I am hurting a lot and I don't know what to do. I know he is fourth write with how he is and I love him so much, but heart is hurting.

6 comments posted: Friday, October 18th, 2024