My Life
My wife and I were swingers at 1 point until I broke the #1 rule. I cheated at a party we were throwing. When I came down the stairs after being caught I started to blame everyone else for the reason I cheated. My fear of death my need to feel wanted and desired from every women. I blamed anything I could. I let her lay there like Humpty Dumpty while I tried to get sympathy. I shattered our whole world. That was 10 years ago. We have made some progress but not enough. We have both been to every counselor and therapist you can think of both alone and together. We don’t hide anything material from each other. We had a great marriage I threw it away. We have made it past stage 1 but are stuck at stage 2. Stage 1 was forgiveness. What I need is some idea of what or where to go from here? She forgave me for the affair so now I just need some idea what to do next?
8 comments posted: Friday, January 15th, 2021