Short recap - caught WH in his 4th EA in the last 12 years. I confronted October 2nd, he lied to me the very next morning, and we had it out again.
I know that this is fresher than fresh, but how in the heck do you deal with this new super attentive, super helpful person that WP's turn into after getting caught/confessing?
On the one hand, it's great. It's what I have wanted for, forever!
On the other hand, I want to throat punch him, or be snarky, or just cruel, or whatever.
Like, you could have been doing this THE WHOLE TIME and we would be in a completely different situation. You obviously CAN be this way and do these things, but you didn't. Was I not worth it then? What makes me worth it now?
How long will this actually last? Until you get tired of trying to be this new 'you' that you are now pretending to be so that I get off your back and you can go back to the real you?
My birthday is coming up. He asked me what I wanted for my birthday. I told him I don't know. He said, well, I need to know what to get you.
HA, You have been with me for almost 15 years and you don't know me well enough to get me some birthday presents?
I told him I am not in the head space to even worry about my birthday. That part of me loves that he wants to get me things that I want, and the other part me wants to throw them at him.
He told me that my birthday is important to him and I ALMOST went off on him again. Cause you see ladies and gents - I turned 40 last year and all he got me was a CARD, from the kids. That's it. When I told him that, he's like "but we went to dinner and I took you to that one place after and you got somethings." Yes, we went to dinner, then we went to bath and body works, where I picked out my own presents, was rushed because they were closing, and that was that.
Happy 40th to me!
Is it normal to like them one minute and damn near hate them the next? How do I even start thinking about R if all I want to do is make him hurt like I hurt? Does this go away?